This memoir has taken so many different forms over the last five years and there are so many people to thank who have helped me to get it to this point. Including all of the people who were patient, caring, loving, supportive, made me laugh, and kicked my ass on my journey of this crazy crazy life.
First and foremost are my incredible parents for everything everything EVERYTHING! My insanely amazing husband Ben Stumpf for showing me what love is, putting up with my crazy, never letting me take anything too seriously, and for letting me use his drawings/collages to help share this story. My sister Danielle for supporting me no matter what and being the best and goofiest lil, any girl could ever ask for. My sister from another mister Lorenna I love you, love you, love you, and couldn't have done this without all of your help and support. Rachel Levine for letting me share a small part of her story and always being such an inspiration and amazing friend. Robin for making my dad the happiest man around and for loving and supporting me so incredibly much. And to all of my family White's, Romeo's, and Stumpf's. All of your love and support has kept me going through all of the ups and downs of both life and this project.
To my Hfields crew for always loving and believing in me and never giving up on me no matter how obnoxious I got. I am the luckiest person around to still have the four of you in my life. Lorenna Gomez-Sanchez, Dan Scudellari, Amy Yakuboff, and Brian Murray. I LOVE YOU!!!
To all my friends and family who have read this story in all different forms. From the very beginning when I was fooling myself into thinking a collage of documents could be a book to the very end. Meredith Degansky, Lara Miller, Stephanie Fagan, Keely Graber, Kyle Depew, Kimi Mongello, Erica Reitman, and so many of you who have already been thanked.
And to the people who finally convinced me I needed to grow a pair, face my fears, and write it. Taryn Longo and Aaron Angel. I owe you two some giant love hugs.
To my teachers, therapists, doctors, and healers. It is with your support and knowledge that I am able to share this story as my past. Deedee Olson, Adele, Tasha, Sheila, Jill Balk, Andrea Yurkew, Brita Mazur, Chandra Scofield, David Harshada Wagner, Tara Glaizer, Ashleigh Sergeant, Tony Gulliano, Hagar Harpik, Leslie Luft, and Indira Darst.
To all of my Grandparents, Dottie, Andrew, and my Uncle Joe. I wish you could be here to share this with me. Especially my Grandma Doris White who had been encouraging me to write this for years. I love and miss all of you so much!
To our lawyer David Trueman who never gave up on my case and all of the amazing people who helped in any way in the fight to get me help. Many of you who are already listed and those of you who I never had the chance to meet or even know your name. Thank you for believing I deserved another chance at life. I am forever grateful.
And also to Mike Walsh, Duffy Meehan, and Callie Sooker for so many many many reasons.
I love every last one of you. Thank you Thank you Thank you!